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Summer feels like its finally already here even though I still have one last exam. I feel.. well, I'm not really sure. All of my stress is gone, thats for sure. I'm content I guess but not exactly 'happy,' I guess you would say.

I wonder what I'll end up doing to pass my summer says by. If I really even want to pass them by at all. Maybe I'll waste them away.. like I usually do.

All I know.. is that I'm lonely. All alone. Even if I'm in a house full of people. But I can't talk to them. I have nobody to just talk to about everything.. hang out with. And I just feel like all my friends are having fun without me. Forgotten about me. Don't care anymore. And I really miss them.

It looks as though they had a little outting today. It makes me feel totally left out. But I guess they can't really help it. I live an hour away from them all.. But.. I mean still. Bernie's friends always make a great effort for her. But mine just can't. We're really just not that close at all. Even if I thought we were. Nobody knows me enough..

It seems I'll be spending my summer days.. wasted away.. all alone.



..all alone..