id love to be you

[darknightfairy]

..When I think about my life.. and about who I am..

I'm so lame..

the people I see everywhere. I think about them. And what they're life is like. The people that stand out. That are unafraid of taking risks, making mistakes, etc..

I wish I could be like that. I wish I could be one of them.

A life that is full of adventure. A carefree world.

That truly would be the best life.

I think about how perfect that would be.

But is it really? Sure I may see those things.. the things they do to stand out..

but there's always more to them than that..

I mean, of course there is..

its like.. i would love to be that person.. but i wouldnt want to know me from inside and out the way I know myself now..

I would just love to be someone on this earth.. a random person.. who stands out.. is unafraid.. yet really not a person at all..

to not know oneself.. to just be.. not think of who you are or what you want to be..

not know anything.. just a random nobody who stands out..

someone.. yet not?

but there is no possible way. to be.. that way..

one can stand out all they want. but there will always be thoughts.. personality.. emotions.. events.. days.. people.. friends.. loves.. interaction.. influences..

a person..

to be a person is to have a unique personality.. something distinct about you..

so maybe.. i should just wish..

i was cool.. stood out.. unafraid of taking risks..

those things i'll never be..

it cant hurt to dream right?..

if only dreams could come true.....