Free me.. from what I don't wanna be..

[darknightfairy]

I... Well fuck.

I sicken myself.

Everything about me is just so so wrong.

I'm fucking perverted.

I fall in 'love' with a stupid guy just looking at their fucking picture.

Even if they're younger than me. Or wayy older than me.

or.. or..

I'm so pathetic. And I only like them for what I see. And what I think they are.

And.. and..

Things they do that make them seem.. I don't know. Confident? Outgoing? Outrageous?

Anything..

I feel like a failure. I'm so fucking socially inept that it's sad.

And there are kids younger than me that know more than I do. That are way deeper than I am.

I hate that. I think I know so much but I really don't.

Or maybe I only think they're such intellectuals because they can speak their mind freely.

While I can't. It's like I'm bound to something.

I have fucking insecurites. They drive me crazy.

I hate a lot of things. But the number one thing I hate has probably got to be myself.

It all always comes back to the same thing.

But still. I get easily attached, infatuated, obsessed. It's horrible.

I feel like the worst person on earth.

So now how do I fix this problem? What's the answer?

Funny thing is.. there probably isn't one..

And now. I'm stuck.


Stuck..

Well, someone free me...